I keep spacing out- I feel like my surroundings fade and my existence is erased for a little while. It's a peaceful feeling. I wonder if that's how I'll feel when death claims me.
What I would do to clear my mind and erase all my nagging, anxious, dark thoughts- to shut my inner voice off.
I have friends around me, but I'm still alone; I have no one.
Is this what death will feel like as well?
It's so dark and lonely, yet so peaceful and familiar.
All the pressure built up in me- I don't know how to release.
Sadness echoes through me everyday, every minute. Emptiness.
Nobody to listen. Nobody to understand. All this stress, confusion and despair. What do I do with these?
I don't even know anymore.